Ache

As I've said, being able to see is so amazing. The dryness definitely subsided, but it's not completely gone yet. But I've been getting really bad headaches. Usually in the evenings, and especially when it's very bright outside. I wear my sunglasses all the time and that helps. But the headaches are awful. Hopefully they'll be gone soon too.

I'm glad this week is over. Work just drove me mad. My students are great, but I'm so tired of this administrative nonsense - drivers, incompetent secretaries, contradictory or a complete lack of information. Burası Turkiye. This is Turkey. That's what everyone says when you complain anything. Not really an answer or reason, but ok...

I've noticed that the cats on my street seems to enjoy sleeping in people's flower boxes. So, guess what I'm gonna buy tomorrow? A flower box! I'm going to look for cilantro seeds since I always want cilantro and it's difficult to find. Maybe basil too. Or mint? I'm a habitual plant killer (although we have a small cute cactus-like? one now that I'm trying to not kill - 2 days in, so far, so good. The only problem is that I don't know what it is, so I don't know how to take care of it).

I'm getting spring fever I guess. I need some visitors or something (visit me!) Hopefully my mom will come and we'll go to Cappadocia.

I'm gonna go lay down, this headache is not good....

I broke down

I guess I was doing pretty good with the whole not complaining thing. Maybe I wasn't entirely successful, but I definitely complained less.

Until today.

Today it all came out for some reason. And you know what? It made me feel worse. But it needed to come out so I'll let it come out again here just for good measure. And hopefully it will all be gone after that.

The driver is supposed to pick me up every Tuesday and Thursday outside the Metro station at 10:30. This pickup time has not changed in 3 months. Granted, my student does cancel somewhat frequently, but I always notify the school when he does.

However, the driver, for whatever reason, is never actually there at 10:30. Anywhere between 10:45 and 10:55 he appears, asking if I've been waiting long (um YES!) and looking somewhat surprised at my answer.

Today I waited for 20 minutes in heavy winds which blew around dust and other crap from the disgusting streets (not so good for freshly lasered eyes)...I hid behind my sunglasses, scarf and hoodie.

Then after my lesson, I waited in the heavy rain outside VF for the driver who promised to be there at 1pm. I started checking my watch every minute at 1:10 and then finally around 1:25 he comes walking up asking where I've been. Um, I've been waiting here for 25 minutes I said. He said no you haven't. I drove by and you weren't here so I parked down the street. He was angry that I didn't think that he would park 1/4 mile the street. Silly me!

Then, before my next lesson, I waited again. We have a set "4:05" departure time as there is a group of us going. However, 4:05 gradually become 4:10 and then 4:15, 4:30, etc. I went up to the secretary to complain. She actually got off her ass and found the driver! And we left. But not after I slammed my head on the van door.

I arrived to argue more with the secretary who drives me batty with his lack of English, his "Yes I do" answer to everything, his lies just to piss me off.

Finally I'm home. My body is tired, my eyes are tired and I have to wake up at 7:30am tomorrow and I'll get home at 8pm. All for 4 hours of teaching.

I need a vacation.